Am fuming! C'mon man there is a limit to everything!!! I hate to depend on people! I just hate it! Is that a price to pay when you are a girl? I need to depend on other people to go out! How can people spend their time at home??? Keep watching tv, eat and sleep? Is this a life???

Ok yes I am an outgoing person. Yes I like to have fun and relax and forget about all the problems that I have in my life! Having problems doesn't mean you sit at home and brood over them! What's wrong in going out to a pub, listening to music, watch new faces, meet people you know and have a couple of hours of fun? Yeah sometimes 2 hours can extend to 5 hours but what's wrong in that? You are not doing it everyday or every weekend, are you?

I need to depend on people so that I don't go out alone. Sure there is a pub where I can go alone coz I feel safe enough there and I know no-one will come to bug me. But am not doing it nowadays. But if I decide to go to a happening place I will not go there alone. And for that I need company. I've tried every person who likes to have fun and no-one is available today. And another one as usual has to bend to his wife's whims as always! That's fkg frustrating! I wonder if he is at all happy with his wife!!! Coz too much is too much! I've seen them so many times and really I pity the guy coz this is not the way to treat him!

Anyway I stayed at home only and spent some time on the net. Nevermind… Wait till I start working again! Am sure things are going to change… and that too drastically. I will get my smile back!!!