I went out somewhere 2 weeks ago. Dropped by home for some quick lunch then was going out again. Saw packs of mineral water stacked up near the main door. As usual I decided to give a hand to my Dad coz it’s not right for him or my Mom to lift up heavy things at this age. So I kept the packs of litres of water where it should be kept and then proceeded to my car to get some CDs. I got inside the car, looked behind me and felt a pain so sharp that I gagged to catch my breath.

I tried to get out of the car but couldn’t. My Sis heard my cries and came. I told her that I could hardly move. I tried my best to get out of the car but then I could not walk. I could not breathe. Each breath accentuated the pain. It was worse than needles being dugged into my flesh. Gosh. It was aweful.

My Sis helped me climb up the stairs. Mom asked what happened and Sis cried out that I was in terrible pain. Mom and Dad came running and they couldn’t understand what was happening to me. I could not stand straight. Sis had her arms wrapped around me from behind so as I have support if I can’t walk. I was rushed to the guest room and lied down immediately on the bed. I was lying on my stomach with my left arm was dangling outside the bed and my head tilted in a way. I did not move at all. I was just crying out in pain.

The pain was in my back. Just below my left shoulder. Where your left arm is attached to. It was burning and I dunno what all sensation I was having. All I know is that when I breathed in the pain would be unbearable. Sis felt a lump there. Yeah I guess my nerves have become all entertwined with each other! My parents thought of calling up the ambulance but I refused. Yes I can bear pain to a certain level which is quite high. But this time I couldn’t. We decided to go to the doctor. Again I walked with great difficulty. The doctor was shocked when he saw me. He could very well see that I was in immense pain and immediately my Sister went to get an injection to ease away the pain. But that wasn’t enough.

The doctor kept examining me and seemed worried. He asked me questions as in whether I feel stuffy and all. Coz if this is the case then it could be the lungs and not the muscle. Naah not possible. Well it’s true that I’ve been feeling a burning sensation at that particular place and have been to the gym to work out my back muscle. That helped a to alleviate the pain a little. But then the pain started getting worse so I would not be sitting too much using the laptop and all. I knew it was the start of some inflammation but didn’t bother much about it. Same happened a few years ago with my lower back. I was bedridden for a week. Again I was firmly asked to take rest for a week otherwise things could get worse. I was given anti-inflammatory tablets and some other tablet for blood clots. It was not a muscle pull otherwise I would have felt it. It was just that the effort I had made by lifting the bottles might have been too much for the poor back to bear.

Well, I could not sit for long nor walk for long. Driving was a big no-no. The first day I had to comply to what I was told to do. But the very next day I started feeling restless. I was getting pissed off coz I hate being like this!!! But what to do…

So I am feeling better now but the pain keeps coming back. And whenever this happens I try to take rest. My Dad thinks that my pain was ephemeral. I hate to see that sarcastic smile when I know that the pain is terrible. Ah well… As it is the relationship with my Dad is thunderous so even though I had lashed out sarcasm when he had once asked me if my pain was still there, I try to keep it cool.