I feel like saying that my life has come to a dead-end. Would that be wrong? Coz I don’t know what is wrong or what is right anymore.

I was about to reverse the car to keep it in the garage when I saw my neighbour in the rear-view mirror heading towards me. Earlier he had picked up a stone (bigger than the size of his palm) and had thrown it at a dog even though the dog was just happily hopping on the other side of the road. I was hardly a meter away, in my car, heading home. Before throwing the stone, that idiot didn’t even look behind to see if a car was coming or not. Dangerous. Irresponsible. Poor doggie. I just glared at him and continued my way. I didn’t even horn.

So as I was about to reverse the car, I spotted him in the rear-view mirror. Instantly my eyes became  small, almost like a slit. Contempt. My window was down and instinctively I raised it a lil higher. Enough to hear him swearing as he came to my level. It’s very much possible that he was swearing at me or he wanted to provoke me. Provoked I was. But kept my cool.

He was walking with an umbrella in his hand. The type that is long with a piece of metal at the extremity. After crossing my car, he reached his gate just 3 houses away but suddenly he seemed to change his mind when his eyes fell on a car parked on the opposite side. He crossed the street and to my utter dismay I saw him kicking the side of the car, then raising his umbrella he used the metal part to scratch the rear door, the front door, then he came to the hood and scratched all over it!!! Not satisfied, he damaged the rear-view mirror!!! Shit! I should stop him!!! I started honking!!! I thought at least that would!!! He looked my way and he crossed the road and again looked my way. My head was whizzing. This should stop here before things get worse!

I geared up the car, reached to his level and asked him what his fkg problem was. He looked at me, got into his yard and closed the gate. A car was watching the whole scene in front of me and that car has 3 males in it. All neighbours. And they didn’t raise a single finger to stop this asshole’s act of vandalism!!! I kept honking so that the owner’s of the car would get out of the house but no-one did!!! I saw that asshole’s legs through the gate and I could make out that he was scared. He waited for a few minutes and he approached the gate and peeped through. I wasn’t scared a single bit!!! I was just waiting for one single move. One single move and I would have gotten out of the car and taught him a lesson!!! Yes I would have done it. I was capable of it.  Because what he did was unacceptable!!!

The car in front of me was approaching me. The occupants wanted me to back away. I did. But I had to move forward twice as I was getting in the gutter. Glancing in the rearview mirror I saw my Dad on the street. Neighbours around had gathered on the road and were watching. Dad asked me what I was doing. I told him I will tell him later and added that he has damaged the parked car. I reversed the car in the garage and my Sis closed the gate, asking me what happened. My face was still flushed. I was furious!!! I told her he had to be stopped! These people’s car was scratched all over and what if he does the same thing with our car??? As it is the other day he saw that I was leaving my place and placed 2 rocks on the street. He knew I was going that way! There! Right under my nose, he picked up 2 big pieces of rocks found on the side of the road and placed one on the left and another one on the right while staring at me!!! I had just enough space to pass through the stones!!! That had infuriated me! Was he fkg nuts???

My Dad came inside the house and asked me why the hell did I have to do all this??? I said what he was doing to that car wasn’t right!!! And he might do the same to ours too!!! Now everyone told me I should have left him alone and let him damage the car. That was not our problem!!! What the FCK??? Don’t they get it??? I did it for 2 reasons dammit!!! And he had to be stopped!!! My Dad argued the fact that what if he had attacked me or thrown a stone at me or whatever? I did think about all these while he was doing all that shit! But had he done it I would have handled it! Yes I would!!!

Everyone was mad at me in the house. Specially my Sis. She told me ‘Now I will be scared to keep my car on the side!” Dammit doesn’t she get it??? He will not fkg do it now!!! Noway! He got scared! And he is scared! Even if he takes revenge at least we know who did it!!! But I am certain that he will not do it now!!!

My Dad was excited. So was my Sister. She told me I should have left him alone. Bullshit!!! You see someone vandalizing a car and you run inside your house and do as if nothing has happened??? How can you do that? Don’t you think that the person is threatening the peace in our street? A place where it’s supposed to be a bit secured??? This guy is crazy! He is nuts! Either he actually is mentally sick or he behaves that way to get away with it while threatening the peace around him! What if he attacks someone who is walking on the road? He should either be undergoing medical treatment or be locked behind bars dammit!!!

I will not tolerate these kinds of things! I have closed my eyes once and I could have saved a life. A couple living behind used to batter their 3 year-old child everyday. I could not bear hearing the toddler crying. I kept telling my parents that we should call the police because this was unbearable. The kid was thrashed up everyday. Several times a day. Dammit if they didn’t want a kid why didn’t they aborted it? Or given it to an orphanage??? I waited and waited for it to stop. I could not hear the baby cry like this. Then one day it all stopped. I don’t know where I had gone. I was absent for a few days. When I came back, I was told the toddler was dead. These fkg parents had thrown her out of the window and her head had banged against the wall. She had died on the spot with a fractured skull. I was devastated. I still am. I will be for the rest of my life. I should have called the police. These 2 criminals are still behind bars. That was around fourteen years ago.

I came upstairs for a shower and after a few minutes my Sis also came. Again she brought up that incident. She told me my Dad was excited because of what I did. So? She again told me I should not have done this. I told her I won’t do it again. I’ve learnt my lesson. Chapter over. But she didn’t stop. As usual. She added that sometimes I do things too impulsively. And I don’t think about the repercussions that it might have. What fkg repercussions??? There won’t be any. I am dead sure of it! Then why the hell did that guy go inside his yard to hide dammit?????? I was furious again! Why is it always like this? Is she Miss Perfect? She has done things too!!! And am not going to throw it at her face. She is just plain scared that this guy scratches her car. Well if you are that scared then you might as well consider keeping it in the courtyard for a change!