Yeah that's how am feeling right now! Sigh... Yeah am kinda getting some sudden 'enlightenment' from out of nowhere! Just realising that am painfully getting old and that I no longer have the same stamina had a few months back! What has happened to meeeeeeeee???

Going to the gym has no longer become an enjoyment for me. It takes real courage and motivation for me to hit the treadmill and exercise for 1 1/2 hrs almost everyday. Previously after 2 hours of working out every single day and going to work after that, I used to be fit like anything. Now? Now after gymming I come home and am wasted! Absolutely wasted!!! Why oh whyyyyyyyyyyyyy???

I need to take serious grip of myself. After almost 2 months I had fun yesterday and I had missed that so much. No I don't want to change for the worse!!! No! I want to get back that dynamism that am so well-known for! Too much lethargy is eating me up at an alarming speed! Was discussing with someone in the morning and asked him whether he has noticed too that we don't have the stamina like we had a few months back or even a year ago. He agreed. What has become of us? We are still young! Boo-hoo-hoo...

Apart from that am getting desperate for a new job now. I can't be at home like this! Am growing fat and all and I keep eating! That's because I can't smoke at home! And this is causing me to eat, eat and eat! I need to get real serious about this fitness thing coz it's like am wasting my time getting all sweaty and tired at the gym and then I end up eating more than I should! From tomorrow onwards am going to eat only half stomach and fill myself up with water!!! Today itself I had 3 litres of water. The reason? Too much drinking last night and am dehydrated! Lol! Am shamelessly admitting that I LOVED IT!!! Ha ha!